Master Chin Kung - 3 Refuges are Truly Implemented in my Mind after I Learn Buddhism 40 years

(English subtitles) Master Chin-Kung (淨空法師, 1927 - 2022) talk dharma. 念念提起覺性嫉妒心我學佛四十年才淡化
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I feel very gratified for myself. I also feel very lucky for myself. I started to learn Buddhism at the age of 26. I'm 75 years old, 50 years in total. It has been 50 years without a day of interruption. After I studied Buddhism for 7 years, I left home and began to preach. I have not interrupted my sermon for 43 years. This is my experience.
For such a long time, I kept on practicing every day. I either preach on the stage or read sutras, prepare for the lecture. At the beginning, I have to prepared my lecture notes. Afterwards, I practiced well and become skillful, and I prepare outline. I usually write outlines in lists and briefs. Most of the first ten years, I made lists and wrote outlines.
Without such a long period of cultivation, I could not change my problems and bad habits. When it's prosperous or adverse, good or bad circumstance.
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How can my mind have a reason not to be moved? Prosperity and good circumstance definitely lead to greed. Adversity and bad circumstance definitely lead to anger. Seeing others do good things and triumph, I couldn't help but feel a little jealous. These serious vexations in the course of my personal practice and study took 30 years to fade away. In other words, after 20 years of the sermon, my jealousy was gone. When it was 10 years, I still had that.
In any circumstance, the discrimination of prosperity or adversity is not gone until 40 years later. No matter what circumstance it is, my mind is peaceful. I always keep my mind peaceful and pure. These things, if it is an old practitioner who came to listen to my sermon when I started lecturing the sutras, Watching my sermon each year.
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I lecture the same sutra but with different content. You can observe from here. My states are different year to year. My state are different month to month. What reason? When vexations are lightened, wisdom grows. Turn vexations into wisdom, this is it. How to turn? Definitely not to go along with the vexations, Knowing that the nature of vexation is empty, vexation is not beneficial, and wisdom is beneficial.
If not go along with vexation, wisdom will present, that's all. The sentient being and Buddha are equal. You and I are no different. The key is if you can raise awareness in the midst of every thought. Every thought is awakened but not delusional. Every thought is righteous but not wicked. Every thought is pure and undefiled.
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These are 3 Refuges. 3 Refuges are truly implemented in my mind. Future is fully bright. Future is full of dharma joy, and always with a delighted heart. My body needs less and less in the world. In the end, it was really a bowl of rice per day and a piece of clothing. Let go of everything else. My mind and body have become one with the universe.
How can I not be at ease? How can I be unhappy? Indeed, it is not hard to speak, but it is hard to implement. You must find out the reason for the difficulty. You have to find out the cause of hardship. Find out the causal connection of hardship. If you cease the causes, Away from the causal connections, you will overcome the hardship.
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If you can't find the cause or causal connection, you have no way to handle it. Each person's causes and causal connections
are not exactly the same. You must be able to find, that is to reflect. Must be mindful of the fact, that is, You should not interfere with external causal circumstances. This is the most important secret of Bodhisattva practice to become a Buddha.
So, the Buddha regarded his teaching as internal learning, which tells us to observe inward and seek inward. You shouldn't seek outward, why? No Buddha dharma is outside the mind. If you seek outward, you become an outsider. You should never have any interference with the external circumstances. You have to seek everything inward.